failboatsinlovex | I wish I could say that it's a cute little christmas fic...

So this was inspired by the plotbunny post and beachan18's bunny (#2) totally bit me. I was like, oh! this'll be so cute! and then I had to go and fuck it up. I fucked it up. Oh, my God, I fucked it up so hard. I don't even know, it went from Spencer wanting to make Brendon happy, into Brendon being emotionally fucked up from being a Mormon and wanting to please everyone and him making Spencer emotionally fucked up, into Spencer not wanting to tell Brendon he loves him, into some Jon/Ryan, and it's not as it should've been! Sorry, Bea!

So seriously though, I don't even know if this makes any sense. It's just this epic pile of ~3,400 words of angsting *mess* (though, hello trademark angst, you have returned to me) and unbeta'd. Maybe they're all horribly, horribly OOC. IDK. Comments and if you see any glaring errors? It's all lovely. ♥ ♥ ♥

Read it here.